depression

Today's proud moment was having this chocolate pudding after dinner! I feel a little guilty but I knew I hadn't eaten enough today after working over lunchtime. The most important thing is that I did enjoy it💛#recovery #anorexia #anorexic #anxious #ana #ed #anatips #edrecovery #anarecovery#anorexiarecovery #depressed #depression #suicidal #insomnia #bodypositive #selfhatred

Today's proud moment was having this chocolate pudding after dinner! I feel a little guilty but I knew I hadn't eaten enough today after working over lunchtime. The most important thing is that I did enjoy it💛#recovery #anorexia #anorexic #anxious #ana #ed #ana tips #ed recovery #ana recovery#anorexia recovery #depressed #depression #suicidal #insomnia #bodypositive #selfhatred

Now would be a great time. Fml #depression #suicide #fml #anxiety #depressionquotes

Now would be a great time. Fml #depression #suicide #fml #anxiety #depression quotes

I wouldn’t be anywhere close to where I am
without you
because your voice unlocked the bravery I buried deep inside me
and your touch ignited my frozen heart
and for those reasons I fell so far I’ll never be able to climb out
and I’m too far gone to muster up any anger
because the first time we crashed together
the stars glittered a little brighter then they did the day before
so yes, when they ask why I restarted the universe
the only answer will be your name 
so yes, when the history books write about the darkness
they’ll be required to write about the light too
because, darling, they’ll have to write about you
there’s no ending where we aren't intertwined”

I wouldn’t be anywhere close to where I am
without you
because your voice unlocked the bravery I buried deep inside me
and your touch ignited my frozen heart
and for those reasons I fell so far I’ll never be able to climb out
and I’m too far gone to muster up any anger
because the first time we crashed together
the stars glittered a little brighter then they did the day before
so yes, when they ask why I restarted the universe
the only answer will be your name 
so yes, when the history books write about the darkness
they’ll be required to write about the light too
because, darling, they’ll have to write about you
there’s no ending where we aren't intertwined”

I feel so bloated today 😩

I feel so bloated today 😩

I wouldn’t trade my child for anything in the world and while friends has given me some “heads up” of what to expect during pregnancy and in postpartum but there were a few things... some big and small no one mentioned and some weren’t until as I was going through it. Some of it still is happening but I’m thinking “I wish I could have been prepared or known”. 〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️🔹 Postpartum depression (PPD) and/ baby blues is the real deal and is the most overwhelming feelings. It gets better but in the thick of it is tough and you need support. 🔹 my hair would be falling out and coming out in CLUMPS. 🔹 breastfeeding isn’t the ultimate weight loss. Now to be fair, this wasn’t my only plan... but I don’t think breastfeeding has contributed as much as people made it out to be. 🔹 the amount of bleeding those first 6-8 weeks postpartum would always look like someone got murdered 🔹 having had a c-section.... that almost 7 months later between my belly button and scar would feel like constant sunburn all the time.... on the inside. 🔹 when you have a cold or flu and breastfeeding pretty much no medicines for you〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️These are just a few and I like knowing things before they happen so I don’t assume the worst. Was there anything that surprised you? Anything you didn’t expect? Anything you wish you were prepared for? Would love to share together ⬇️⬇️ #support #postpartum #pregnancy #encouragement #momlife #life #depression #mom #PPD #csection #recovery #healing

I wouldn’t trade my child for anything in the world and while friends has given me some “heads up” of what to expect during pregnancy and in postpartum but there were a few things... some big and small no one mentioned and some weren’t until as I was going through it. Some of it still is happening but I’m thinking “I wish I could have been prepared or known”. 〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️🔹 Postpartum depression (PPD) and/ baby blues is the real deal and is the most overwhelming feelings. It gets better but in the thick of it is tough and you need support. 🔹 my hair would be falling out and coming out in CLUMPS. 🔹 breastfeeding isn’t the ultimate weight loss. Now to be fair, this wasn’t my only plan... but I don’t think breastfeeding has contributed as much as people made it out to be. 🔹 the amount of bleeding those first 6-8 weeks postpartum would always look like someone got murdered 🔹 having had a c-section.... that almost 7 months later between my belly button and scar would feel like constant sunburn all the time.... on the inside. 🔹 when you have a cold or flu and breastfeeding pretty much no medicines for you〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️〰️These are just a few and I like knowing things before they happen so I don’t assume the worst. Was there anything that surprised you? Anything you didn’t expect? Anything you wish you were prepared for? Would love to share together ⬇️⬇️ #support #postpartum #pregnancy #encouragement #mom life #life #depression #mom #PPD #csection #recovery #healing

Red ObsessionsSome days I think this world is a dull one,on others I find it too bright to open my eyes.Too red.Too much love and lust, anguish and anger,the color of the stains on butchers’ aprons, offalling for people who cannot love you back. I do not understand how to live with moderation.When I dream I dream in black and white or in crimson,I see the past or Iam watching hell rise from the ground and it is not a pretty thingthe way everything burnsthe way the color red is changing everything from something into nothing.I am not surprised I grew up writing only in black ink and on white paper,that I obsessed over blankness and emptiness whenthe compulsions took over. I’m not surprised that half of those I know sayI notice everything the restsaying I am oblivious, how elsedoes one survive when the devils are so innocent theyare only encouraging cleanliness, its onlyhand sanitizer, what’s wrong with a few Benadryl to keepthe dreams at bay, everything is a blur, how comeI don’t get to choose when to participate in this realityor when to disappear? #depression #mentalillness #mentalhealth #sad #poetry #poem #poet #poetrycommunity #poetsofinstagram #writing #writer #writersofinstagram #writingcommunity #spilledink #writersofig #poetsofig #selfrespect #antidepressants #ocd #delusions #red #color #anger #pain #psychology

Red ObsessionsSome days I think this world is a dull one,on others I find it too bright to open my eyes.Too red.Too much love and lust, anguish and anger,the color of the stains on butchers’ aprons, offalling for people who cannot love you back. I do not understand how to live with moderation.When I dream I dream in black and white or in crimson,I see the past or Iam watching hell rise from the ground and it is not a pretty thingthe way everything burnsthe way the color red is changing everything from something into nothing.I am not surprised I grew up writing only in black ink and on white paper,that I obsessed over blankness and emptiness whenthe compulsions took over. I’m not surprised that half of those I know sayI notice everything the restsaying I am oblivious, how elsedoes one survive when the devils are so innocent theyare only encouraging cleanliness, its onlyhand sanitizer, what’s wrong with a few Benadryl to keepthe dreams at bay, everything is a blur, how comeI don’t get to choose when to participate in this realityor when to disappear? #depression #mentalillness #mentalhealth #sad #poet ry #poem #poet #poet ry community #poet sofinstagram #writing #writer #writer sofinstagram #writing community #spilledink #writer sofig #poet sofig #selfrespect #antidepressants #ocd #delusions #red #color #anger #pain #psychology

The kind of rest you seek, you will find not from sleeping but from waking.a course in miracles | found through @zennedoutjewleryThis really spoke to me.That "always feeling tired," vibe that so many overachievers and constantly busy people (i.e. myself) are overwhelmed with could absolutely be just physical exhaustion... or it could be more personal. Maybe taking some of that giving&caring&creating&sharing&doing&helping energy, and diverting it inwards would give you the rest you so desperately need.Preaching to myself.beautiful beautiful photography by @bomiyourhomie#depression #mentalhealth #honestinsta #yogachallenge #yoga #igyoga #selfcare #practiceandalliscoming #yogainspiration #danceyoga #yogaoutdoors #yogagirls #yogajourney #beinspired #yogi #stlouisphotography #forestparkforever @stlouisgram
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The kind of rest you seek, you will find not from sleeping but from waking.a course in miracles | found through @zennedoutjewlery This really spoke to me.That "always feeling tired," vibe that so many overachievers and constantly busy people (i.e. myself) are overwhelmed with could absolutely be just physical exhaustion... or it could be more personal. Maybe taking some of that giving&caring&creating&sharing&doing&helping energy, and diverting it inwards would give you the rest you so desperately need.Preaching to myself.beautiful beautiful photography by @bomiyourhomie #depression #mentalhealth #honestinsta #yoga challenge #yoga #igyoga #selfcare #practiceandalliscoming #yoga inspiration #danceyoga #yoga outdoors #yoga girls #yoga journey #beinspired #yogi #stlouisphotography #forestparkforever @stlouisgram

Everyone around me is pissing me the fuck off I need help ugh ..……....………….....……………......……………..……………...……………....…………………....……………....………………....……………....………………....……………....……....………….....……………......……………..……………...……………....…………………....……………....………………....……………....………………....…………… #depression #depressed #depressedquotes #depressionquotes #depressededits #depressedteens #alone #alonequotes #sad #selfhate #selfharn #suicide #suicidal #suicidevideos

Everyone around me is pissing me the fuck off I need help ugh ..……....………….....……………......……………..……………...……………....…………………....……………....………………....……………....………………....……………....……....………….....……………......……………..……………...……………....…………………....……………....………………....……………....………………....…………… #depression #depressed #depressed quotes #depression quotes #depressed edits #depressed teens #alone #alone quotes #sad #selfhate #selfharn #suicide #suicidal #suicide videos

- reasons to stay alive

- reasons to stay alive

These are the things to recover for! The little things in life that mean so much but that are very easy to overlook💖#recovery #anorexia #anorexic #anxious #ana #depressed #ed #depression #suicidal #insomnia #happy #anxiety #bodypositive #bodypositivity #edrecovery #thinspo #weightloss#skinny

These are the things to recover for! The little things in life that mean so much but that are very easy to overlook💖#recovery #anorexia #anorexic #anxious #ana #depressed #ed #depression #suicidal #insomnia #happy #anxiety #bodypositive #bodypositivity #ed recovery #thinspo #weightloss #skinny

my dad has this stupid idea of asking for my “score”. it’s basically a way of him checking how i am without making me talk because i don’t like talking. the two numbers are how safe i am out of 10 and then how happy i am out of 10. he gets so annoyed when i just say 5 and 5 but i don’t know what he’d do if i told the truth. -Lu xx

my dad has this stupid idea of asking for my “score”. it’s basically a way of him checking how i am without making me talk because i don’t like talking. the two numbers are how safe i am out of 10 and then how happy i am out of 10. he gets so annoyed when i just say 5 and 5 but i don’t know what he’d do if i told the truth. -Lu xx

This’ll only stop when I stop

This’ll only stop when I stop

"Du bist doch ein attraktiver junger Mann" sagen die meisten zu mir... Und ich? Ich sehe vor allem meine Fehler, zu viel Fett an mir, zu wenig Muskeln, diese verdammten Pickel und der Bart der keiner ist. Ach und was soll diese Wolle da oben auf meinem Kopf da oben eigentlich darstellen? Dann meine Narben.. zum einen wünschte ich sie wären nicht da.. zum andern wünschte ich da wären mehr damit mich jeder als so schlecht wahrnimmt wie ich es tue.#q findet ihr euch hübsch und seid ihr zufrieden mit eurer Figur?Hab euch lieb, wer bis hier hin gelesen hat kann ja Mal mit 🌹 kommentieren.Ich hab euch lieb, ich hoffe euch geht's gut 😊......#depression #depri #deprisprüche #wrongway #therapie #therapy #hospital #selfhate #selfharm #cutting #ritzen #suicide #suizid #suizidgedanken #wanttodie #sad #boy

"Du bist doch ein attraktiver junger Mann" sagen die meisten zu mir... Und ich? Ich sehe vor allem meine Fehler, zu viel Fett an mir, zu wenig Muskeln, diese verdammten Pickel und der Bart der keiner ist. Ach und was soll diese Wolle da oben auf meinem Kopf da oben eigentlich darstellen? Dann meine Narben.. zum einen wünschte ich sie wären nicht da.. zum andern wünschte ich da wären mehr damit mich jeder als so schlecht wahrnimmt wie ich es tue.#q findet ihr euch hübsch und seid ihr zufrieden mit eurer Figur?Hab euch lieb, wer bis hier hin gelesen hat kann ja Mal mit 🌹 kommentieren.Ich hab euch lieb, ich hoffe euch geht's gut 😊......#depression #depri #depri sprüche #wrongway #therapie #therapy #hospital #selfhate #selfharm #cutting #ritzen #suicide #suizid #suizid gedanken #wanttodie #sad #boy