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**Part 2/2 please read both posts.❤️**•Then two weeks ago, I received a call from an old friend with an urgent message: The third member of our trio had taken his life the night before. My knees gave out and I just collapsed in tears. He said he was trying to get in touch with me through Facebook first, and that's when I got this horrible sinking feeling...what if my friend had been trying to talk to me or left a note? I hadn’t been on Facebook in nine months and my notifications were disabled, so I wasn’t aware that my friend had tried to reach out to me two days before he took his life. I was so scared and in shock, that it took a few days for me to even be able to read through his messages. I despise myself for leaving Facebook over personal problems and not going back, even to check in on him. We were friends for over ten years and I considered him to be my “big-little” brother (he was a giant/a couple years younger than me and I used to call him that😌). It may sound weird to some, but I only have a few people in my life. I'm not that close with my family and I don’t really connect with most people, so I am alone almost all the time. He was the same way and he truly felt I was the only person who could understand him. We both had our personal demons, but we would always try to uplift each other. After his mother’s absolutely horrific death/suicide (it was traumatic and heartbreaking) last year and having to go through it practically alone, he really started to lose himself. I tried to talk to him, but the conversations would often get to the point where I would feel like I was being pushed further down my own dark path. It was selfish of me and I regret not being there for him. He had the biggest heart and to be alone in life and death was incredibly cruel. 😞🤘Metal Moose - You will forever be missed my friend❤️•Thank you again IG comic family for being so kind and caring❤️You guys are so generous and always help each other when someone is in need.
**Part 1/2 please read both posts.❤️**•I know some people have been wondering why I keep vanishing and a few of you actually reached out to see if I was alright. I apologize for the lack of responses, because I don’t take that for granted and I’m truly grateful for the love from the IG comic family. You guys don’t know how much you’ve helped me over the last seven months.Thank you❤️❤️❤️I wanted to make a post to let everyone know what’s been going on, but I’m not great at this sort of thing. 😓 And to be honest, I’m a little bit nervous about being so open online, but I had to say something. Please be respectful and just unfollow if you feel the need to leave a rude comment. Most of you know I’ve been having a hard time since October, but I’ve actually been having a really tough year. Toward the end of last year, I found out that my best friend was heading into the final stage of kidney failure and had to start fluid therapy, plus a variety of expensive medications. About a month ago, his health suddenly started to decline and he quickly deteriorated in front of me. Each day felt like weeks had passed and I tried everything I could to keep him comfortable. Instead of eating a homemade dinner/spending time with family this Thanksgiving, I was pouring my heart out and saying goodbye to the rock in my life for the last 17 years. I’m absolutely crushed - my heart is in pieces and there is nothing that I can write to describe that pain. 😞